ah...its been awhile since i used xanga...here we go i can't believe im a junior in college already. time flies. i can still remember my freshman year move-in day as if it were yesterday. a lot has changed since then. i feel like im living a whole different life. a better life. i miss a lot of things at the moment. gotta fight it. i want to see my family (including royce). as u live away from your family for long periods of time you really realize theres noone like them. i met a lottt of people this year. mostly from cfc. now that im being more active, i can honestly say that im having a lot more fun in champaign. im actually considering staying for the summer. we'll see how that goes. i have a lot of respect for the pastoral staff of cfc. its amazing how smoothly they run a church organization which contains hundreds of people. all i gotta say is prayer is powerful been ballin and liftin as usual. people say that im gettin bigger but i cant see it. ballin has never been so fun. ever since i've sprained my ankle i've been takin it easy. meaning that i dont play down low anymore, which is great. im not nearly as tired as i used to be, and i dont have back pains from boxing out too hard. i've been lazier than the prior semester, and thats not good. not a big deal, but lots of time is going to waste. i gotta get back into study mode. i honestly spend 2-3 hours at the gym a day, but only study half of that if i dont have exams. gotta get that work ethic goin. i miss philippi. there is honestly no church like it. it seems like the church has been dwindling for the past couple years, but i really believe we can get out of this rut. i've learned that prayer is extremely important. theres just a lack of interest that the church is facing right now. we need some solid leaders from the youth group to really pull through and step up. i wish i could be back to serve in any way that i can. its a shame that we're facing this problem when we have such a great pastor. bowling has been my new fav pastime. its fun when u go with the right people. i think i want to retire early and join the pba. i gotta get right with God. its amazing the way christians act when we know God is watching at all times, myself included. its only times when we get caught by others that we really think about the wrong things we have done. isnt that kind of silly. we find shame when humans catch our flaws, but not when our almighty God does. i gave up poker and "the office" for lent. i haven't broken my promises, but i think im missing the point. i dont think the point of lent is to just give up bad habits or things that we're addicted to. we gotta find God during those times we give up these habits and addictions. now to put that into action. by giving up poker and "the office" i've only picked up other hindering things to do. gotta work on that. lastly, i've realized a very big flaw in my personality. i have absolutely no ambition. my mindset is to do the bare minimum in everything i do, and it's been that way since i was a kid. i never have the courage or drive to do everything i can to get the most out of this world. now its really affecting me. while others are having new experiences and joining great organizations, im finding myself being satisfied with just grades. i've never been the type of person to go out and just work on my networking abilities. i've always just kept to myself or at most to my close friends. thats just not going to do it anymore. i need to go beyond this limit. long entry but it felt good getting some things out. i guess xanga still does serve a purpose. -out | 
